LEO Prayer and Support

I am a retired LEO of 18 years. I stressed out early due to Chronic Depression. I was no longer watching out for myself or my comrades and became a liability. I tried to fix it with distraction through alcohol and partying. In the end I could no longer maintain a grip on my state of mind and became suicidal. Fast forward to 2014 I nearly died in a head on crash. After this near-death experience I re-dedicated my life to Christ. Fast forward once again to today, I am now a minister and, with the help and strength of my lovely wife Suzy, operate JNS Ministries. None of this happened over night and I never truly found peace until I turned my life over to my Savior who indeed set me free! This literally took “One Day at a Time.” My wife is a former emergency dispatcher and above all else a cop’s wife. Sadly, she lost her brother Danny to suicide in January of 2015. On top of everything else that she was going through with my life event, she had to deal with this devastating loss. She is my hero. 

Often times when I was out fishing, I would sit at the water’s edge at East Fork Lake in Clermont County, Ohio and contemplate taking my own life. There seems to be an attraction to nature when you are lost and do not have God in your life because God is in nature. I think that is why a lot of people decide to find a secluded place in a park or wooded area and take their own lives. Because it is instinctual to try and find help from our Creator and this is the only way that we as ordinary people know how to find the peace of God; the peace found in the creation of nature. 

As cops, we are trained to hack it and to take it and to just “man up.” This is a falsehood. A lie. A non-truth. We also don’t want to leave our careers that we worked so hard to achieve and we try and make it work no matter what the cost. When I was going over the edge, I sought out the help of a former mentor of mine who told me to seek help with a doctor. I did what he told me to do, and that doctor started me on the anti-depressant Prozac to “get me out of my hole.” With long-term counseling and medication, I was able to climb out of the bottomless pit and enter into the light. I found hope again but this was still not a final cure. Until several months ago I was still taking the Prozac. It’s not something that you can just quit cold turkey due to the nature of the medication. I have been completely delivered from Chronic Depression and from the Prozac. Once I found strength in my Savior again, he took it from me, but I had to give it to Him.

I want you to know that if you are a cop and you have reached the bottomless pit, that there is hope and that hope is in Christ Jesus. I am encouraging you to call us and speak to one of us about what is troubling you. If you are down and discouraged, we would like to speak with you, pray with you, and help you find hope again. Please visit our contact page and send us an email or call us at any time.

*This is a ministerial outreach. There are no certified counselors at this location.